Wellness isn’t a destination; it is an everyday practice
I have a history of not prioritizing my health and wellness. I grew up as an overweight and bullied child with an emotional eating problem caused from isolation and living in a turbulent household. As a teen I developed eating disorders and was scouted as a model – from there on out it was all about how I looked, not how I felt or actually was. I tortured myself in every way imaginable to be as thin as possible, and if I’m being honest, it was a normal routine, even expected of me, in the world I was in. It wasn’t a “serious medical condition.” It was just everyday life, and there’s no disclosure to warn you that these expectations are en route. You don’t need to be a model to relate to the pressures of the current beauty standard and societal norms of what it means to be a woman and diet culture, not just in the USA but everywhere.
At 27 years old I began my journey of recovery from eating disorders, and it was the first time in my life that I realized how I feel matters. It matters so much that it can impact my health and it’ll take more than adding a dietary supplement into my grocery cart to fix. I had spent my life killing myself to look a certain way because that’s what was expected of me. Since then, I’ve been in pursuit of balance – how can I maintain, protect and defend my wellness? I know there’s no magic cure. It’s a continuous problem I’m trying to solve with the equilibrium constantly shifting unpredictably, which I thought I was doing a pretty good job at until…pandemic.
Mental health is not something that I grew up even being aware of. In Asian culture it is not spoken about and extremely stigmatized. This pandemic hit me hard. It impacted my work, my income, my family, my friendships, threw a wrench in almost all of my wellness progress I had made, and reading this list now it also not so surprisingly greatly impacted my mental health. What started as health anxiety, constantly thinking I had covid, disinfecting everything and crossing the street when another person was coming my way, manifested into severe anxiety and panic disorder. I quickly, completely and utterly placed my wellness at the bottom of my priority list as I have been so conditioned to my whole life, and went into survival mode.
I am currently on the rebuild – trying to keep myself motivated enough to make good decisions for myself every day, fighting for my wellness and to defend it. I asked people what helps them find balance and a popular answer I got was CBD products, like CBD oil, - the famous cannabidiol tincture. I came across Healist, tried it and have never looked back. My favourite thing about taking Healist CBD whether in their capsules, drop, or gummies is the blend of organic ingredients – the highest quality CBD, Ashwagandha, L-theanine for example, are all natural ingredients that I incorporate into my daily life to support myself. Therapy, psychiatry, exercise, antioxidants, vitamins, hydrating, intuitive eating, meditation, support groups, boundaries, reading, healing, and CBD. It’s all another layer of support for me.
Wellness isn’t a destination; it is an everyday practice. It’s prioritizing you. It’s sometimes making difficult and uncomfortable decisions for your greater good. It’s not surviving or coasting, it's thriving.